Jan
Let freedom… end?
Filed Under (Personal) by elusivone on 09-01-2009
Today marks the last [week]day of relatively complete freedom for me. Come 9:00 AM Monday morning, I will be reporting to a new gig I managed to snag quite easily not more than a week after graduating college. Since graduation, I have done practically nothing. My intentions were grand: take a week or two road-trip on my own to places undecided (I considered Colorado Springs to join my brother and his family). However, I just couldn’t make myself get up or out to do anything. I blame in part the process of being interviewed and hired as keeping me essentially bolted to my blood-red leather La-Z-Boy recliner and my desk chair. But, really, in this day and age, cell phone in hand, I could have gone somewhere and never missed a beat.
More probable the reason I stayed not just close to home but at home is that it simply felt the best thing to do at the time. Now, I have a few regrets about ‘wasting’ my “free” time, but ultimately it’s been quite rejuvenating. The only real downside to this respite is that my “home” is my parents’; this in and of itself presents a less-than-relaxing experience on several levels (for instance, now, as I listen to my mother huff her way through making dinner – she’s an extremely uptight and sorta pissed-off person, and everything is an ordeal to her). However, I digress…
I have to admit, I don’t necessarily believe that my ‘freedom’ is coming to an end. In fact, one might argue that the complete opposite is true: that with this new life I will find other ways of exploring my personal freedom. I will be financially able to support myself and do things that I have put off doing for a couple of years. And, socializing with people my own age (generally) and who are not my parents will help open me up again. (There is something to be said for the social effects of a job.)
I will, however, miss the late mornings and casual primping routine that I have come to love and adore these last few months. Ahh… memories.
